Moving on

Well I am trying to move on the best I can but it is still so hard. I want to go talk to her and tell her everything great that is happening to me. Only, she is not there to hear it. I am not keeping my feelings in...I am talking through them. I hate seeing what it is doing to her kids...destroying them. I hate it. I am so mad at the situation, I want to scream! How could she do this even after watching what the other teacher did to my kids! How can you love your kids and walk out on them? Her kids come to me in interventions just withdrawn and sad. They want to talk about it. They want to express their feelings. Now their substitute is going through many of the same challenges as I went through (see past blog posts). Maybe I was supposed to go through them to help her know how to deal with them. A similar incident happened on my mission. I had a horrible lesson and was crying. The next week, my companion had the same experience, so I knew how to help her. Actually that happened many times throughout my mission. Anyway I sent my coach over to help her as she has helped me. I wish I could show her how to do some things but I have my own class to teach.


Ok enough of that, I got a 90% on my last lesson and it was in the afternoon. So 98% in the morning and 90% in the afternoon: I can deal with that! Ok so two of my hardest students weren't there and if they had been, my percentage would have changed, but I will take the win:) No my kids are behaving so much better and learning so much. I am so proud of them! My coach is noticing it as well. I thought I was a good teacher and at times thought I did not need any help, but I can tell that I am getting better as well! JPAS did not happen this week either. :) So now that my kids are doing well, I need to help this substitute get her kids to do well as well.


Today and tomorrow they are going to have a substitute. I hope she is better than the last one and treats them with care and kindness. I hope they are respectful and obedient to her as well. I hope the lessons get taught and the days go smoothly. I hope that I learn a lot at this conference that can help my students. I hope that my coach will be able to help the substitute while I am gone. I hope they can work out all of the kinks and bugs with discipline and management. I just hope everyone has a great day!


Other news: I am studying for the Millers and actually doing well. I still am worried that my letters of recommendation for grad school won't be done in time for summer but I guess that is where faith and persistence comes into play. I am having my team leader, my principal, and my mentor do one. All they basically have to say is whether or not they think I can handle grad school. I also have to write my essay which I plan to do this week or weekend of why I want to go to grad school. Then hope and pray that I get accepted. Once accepted, apply for scholarships--all before April 1. Hopefully everything goes as planned. If not, there is always next semester.